I have been wide awake since 4:15 this morning. He woke up to eat, I fed him, I went to the bathroom, and that's where I lost it. I should have never turned on that light. Now he's out and I'm up. Not good. Hopefully I can get back to bed soon, but I don't know. I was awake for about 40 minutes before I decided I should stop tossing and turning before I woke him up. Now I'm bored and not tired.
I'll be heading back to Vegas on Friday, and I move in on Monday. A little excited, a little nervous, a little scared. It will all work out fine, though. Not sure how I'm going to get unpacked, take care of Ian, and keep up my grades, but I know I'll manage.
Guess I'll head back to bed and see what happens. This is not fun
Monday, January 29, 2007
Friday, January 19, 2007
Update on Mr. Ian
Ian had his ultrasound on his neck last Thursday. We finally got the results on it yesterday, and it turns out he has a benign cyst and swollen lymph nodes. For now, all I need to do is continue to keep an eye on it, and let them know if anything with it changes.
He also finished his physical therapy on his tortecollis yesterday. I LOVE his therapist, and am a little sad I won't be seeing her anymore. She did tell me, however, that he's not "cured" and I need to keep a close eye on him until he's 3 or 4. As he grows, it will pull the muscles tight, and since they're already tight, he may revert to hanging his head to the left. So we may be seeing a therapist again in Vegas, and she wrote that on our release papers.
Sleeping is a nightmare. There is a method (actually, I'm finding most methods use this) that involves eat, play, and sleep. It's all about giving the baby a routine, something we don't have at all (it's difficult being at my dad's and establishing a routine, so it's something we will really work on once we get to Vegas in a couple of weeks). Supposedly, the better a baby naps, the better he'll sleep. LIES LIES LIES. Yesterday, I got him to take 2 naps, one was an hour, the next 1 1/2 hours. I was psyched for bedtime, totally thinking "Oh yeah, he'll sleep now". He woke up EVERY HOUR. I tried not to feed him everytime and just helped him soothe himself back to sleep, but it didn't go well for me and at one point I actually got so frustrated I yelled at him. I felt horrible, and it obviously didn't help, but I don't know what else to do. I haven't slept more than a couple of hours at a time since he was born and it's getting to me. I can't wait for Hazen to get home and help me with all this. I'm starting to lose it a little bit.
Oh well. he's been down now for about an hour, and hopefully he'll sleep a little longer. It's hard because he's asleep in his bouncy chair in the living room--he wakes up and screams the second I put him in his crib. He is a stubborn little thing.
He also finished his physical therapy on his tortecollis yesterday. I LOVE his therapist, and am a little sad I won't be seeing her anymore. She did tell me, however, that he's not "cured" and I need to keep a close eye on him until he's 3 or 4. As he grows, it will pull the muscles tight, and since they're already tight, he may revert to hanging his head to the left. So we may be seeing a therapist again in Vegas, and she wrote that on our release papers.
Sleeping is a nightmare. There is a method (actually, I'm finding most methods use this) that involves eat, play, and sleep. It's all about giving the baby a routine, something we don't have at all (it's difficult being at my dad's and establishing a routine, so it's something we will really work on once we get to Vegas in a couple of weeks). Supposedly, the better a baby naps, the better he'll sleep. LIES LIES LIES. Yesterday, I got him to take 2 naps, one was an hour, the next 1 1/2 hours. I was psyched for bedtime, totally thinking "Oh yeah, he'll sleep now". He woke up EVERY HOUR. I tried not to feed him everytime and just helped him soothe himself back to sleep, but it didn't go well for me and at one point I actually got so frustrated I yelled at him. I felt horrible, and it obviously didn't help, but I don't know what else to do. I haven't slept more than a couple of hours at a time since he was born and it's getting to me. I can't wait for Hazen to get home and help me with all this. I'm starting to lose it a little bit.
Oh well. he's been down now for about an hour, and hopefully he'll sleep a little longer. It's hard because he's asleep in his bouncy chair in the living room--he wakes up and screams the second I put him in his crib. He is a stubborn little thing.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
RIP little dog
Sandy was put to sleep on Friday, the 12th. It was one of the hardest things I've had to do, but I'm starting to admit it was the right thing. I wish he were still here, and I miss him so much, but he's not suffering anymore, and that makes me feel better.
I don't have much more to say about it. Thanks for everyone who gave me advice. It really did help. :(
I don't have much more to say about it. Thanks for everyone who gave me advice. It really did help. :(
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Four months
I can't believe I didn't update at 4 months--I meant to, I reminded myself, and apparently I just never got to it. So I'll try to do as much as I can now while he's napping.
He is doing really well. He rolls easily from his tummy to his back, which is a little bit of a problem since he's supposed to be doing a lot of tummy time for his tortecollis. He's pretty cute when he does it though. :) He's very close to rolling from his back to his belly, he just gets caught up on his inside shoulder. It should be any day now.
He can almost sit up on his own. He hunches over and holds himself up with his hands. He's about out of the bouncy chair because he'll get himself sitting up and hunched over the side. It's pretty sad--the bouncy chair was my only source of freedom and it's almost gone.
He pulls himself up into standing with the help of our fingers. With no effort from anyone else, he will grab on and pull up into sitting and then into standing. He loves to stand and he'll look around and smile.
His last appointment went well. On the 11th of December he was 14lbs 13oz and 25.4 inches. I'm sure he's well over 15 or 16 pounds now--he is HEAVY. He also started on rice cereal last week. I was very adament about not starting him until he was 6 months old, but he's been sitting up at the table with us and he looks around and acts like he's chewing. It was time. He does very well with it, and most of it is going in the belly instead of on it.
The tortecollis is really improving. We're finally down to appointments every other week with Karen, his physical therapist, as opposed to the twice a week appointments we were doing in the beginning. He has a lump on the back of his neck that we've been watching since he was 2 months old, and originally we thought it was connected to the tortecollis. However, Karen doesn't think so, and it's grown a bit, so we just got a refferal for an ultrasound today. My poor guy is having a rough start with the eczema, tortecollis, and the lump, but he is really learning to deal with new people and situations, probably better than he would if it weren't for all the issues.
He's still nowhere near sleeping through the night. Last night he was up at 12:15 (didn't go to sleep until after 11), 4, 5, and then 9:30. The big stretch from 5 until 9:30 was because I let him into bed with me (He wouldn't go back to sleep for over an hour, so around 6 I picked him up). I've been letting him sleep with me much more than I wanted to (I didn't want to do it at all) but it's the only way I get ANY sleep. I'm hoping it will be easier once Hazen's home so I'll have someone else to get up with him, but right now, I'm exhausted, and knowing he'll sleep if he's next to me is just too appealing when I haven't had much sleep.
Well, I think I hear him "talking" so I should probably get back to being mommy...
He is doing really well. He rolls easily from his tummy to his back, which is a little bit of a problem since he's supposed to be doing a lot of tummy time for his tortecollis. He's pretty cute when he does it though. :) He's very close to rolling from his back to his belly, he just gets caught up on his inside shoulder. It should be any day now.
He can almost sit up on his own. He hunches over and holds himself up with his hands. He's about out of the bouncy chair because he'll get himself sitting up and hunched over the side. It's pretty sad--the bouncy chair was my only source of freedom and it's almost gone.
He pulls himself up into standing with the help of our fingers. With no effort from anyone else, he will grab on and pull up into sitting and then into standing. He loves to stand and he'll look around and smile.
His last appointment went well. On the 11th of December he was 14lbs 13oz and 25.4 inches. I'm sure he's well over 15 or 16 pounds now--he is HEAVY. He also started on rice cereal last week. I was very adament about not starting him until he was 6 months old, but he's been sitting up at the table with us and he looks around and acts like he's chewing. It was time. He does very well with it, and most of it is going in the belly instead of on it.
The tortecollis is really improving. We're finally down to appointments every other week with Karen, his physical therapist, as opposed to the twice a week appointments we were doing in the beginning. He has a lump on the back of his neck that we've been watching since he was 2 months old, and originally we thought it was connected to the tortecollis. However, Karen doesn't think so, and it's grown a bit, so we just got a refferal for an ultrasound today. My poor guy is having a rough start with the eczema, tortecollis, and the lump, but he is really learning to deal with new people and situations, probably better than he would if it weren't for all the issues.
He's still nowhere near sleeping through the night. Last night he was up at 12:15 (didn't go to sleep until after 11), 4, 5, and then 9:30. The big stretch from 5 until 9:30 was because I let him into bed with me (He wouldn't go back to sleep for over an hour, so around 6 I picked him up). I've been letting him sleep with me much more than I wanted to (I didn't want to do it at all) but it's the only way I get ANY sleep. I'm hoping it will be easier once Hazen's home so I'll have someone else to get up with him, but right now, I'm exhausted, and knowing he'll sleep if he's next to me is just too appealing when I haven't had much sleep.
Well, I think I hear him "talking" so I should probably get back to being mommy...
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