Ultrasound

This is the appointment I made that I had to pay for. Didn't care though--I had to know if I was growing an "Ian" or a "Hanna". We invited my mom, and Joe and Vida (Hazen' brother and his wife who happens to be one of my bestest friends ;) ). The entire night before, I could not sleep. I kept dreaming about the ultrasound. The horrible thing was that they kept telling me it was a girl, and in my dreams I would get pissed everytime they would say that. Apparently, for the first time in my pregnancy, I was convinced I was having a boy. Vida kept asking me what I thought it was, and I kept having to tell her I didn't know. All of a sudden, that day, I was sure. It was a boy. I didn't want to say anything in case I was wrong though, and I felt so guilty for being so angry and disappointed if it was going to be a girl. I just knew in my dreams they were wrong, and they were calling my baby boy a girl! We had to wait for a little while in the waiting room, but it was okay. We looked at shower invite samples and stuff (Vida is throwing my shower) so we stayed occupied. When we were called in, we all filed into the room. It was actually pretty cool. They had couches and a big screen T.V. They better considering how much money I was paying to have it done. ;) She asked us if we knew what we were having and we said no. It made her so excited that she was going to be the one to tell us. :) Right away, she said "Well, it looks like..." and then she cut off and said "No, I won't say anything until I'm certain". At that point, I knew it was a boy. Girls are harder to tell, so I just knew there had to be something there that she was seeing. Hazen told me he was convinced at that point that it was a girl. :) She wiggled the wand a little bit and got the baby to bounce up. Suddenly we were looking at a baby butt and a very obvious baby penis. There was no doubt he was all boy. She said "Look at that! It's a boy!!" I turned to Hazen and made some kind of strange sound (I think I said "Oh!" or something) and could feel the tears in my eyes. It was so incredible to know. Suddenly, the baby became a real person with a gender and a name. It was awesome. Hazen just kept rubbing my shoulder. I knew he had been hoping for a boy, and I was wishing it wasn't so dark and that it was just the two of us because I wanted so badly to see his reaction. He told me later he was rubbing my shoulder so hard because he was trying not to cry. I'm going to have a blubbering mess on my hands come delivery day. :) The rest of the ultrasound was really cool, but just not as exciting as that moment. For the longest time, Ian wouldn't do anything BUT show us "the goods". We couldn't get a profile out of him or anything. He just kept pushing his butt up in our faces. I have a little exhibitionist in there. :) We had decided to NOT get a 3d ultrasound because they freak out Hazen, but the tech was really nice and went into 3d for us a couple of times anyway. She warned us before that he might look a little weird because at 20 weeks, they're still pretty thin. She was really impressed with how good and filled out our little guy was though. He's my chunky monkey--he wasn't thin at all. :) It was so amazing to see how real he looked, but you could tell he wasn't completely developed yet. Ears were a little off and his nose seemed pretty high. But even with that, he looked so adorable, and I really think he looks like Hazen. He totally had his daddy's chin. Hazen thinks I'm nuts and that he looked like "an alien". I guess he still had the face only a mother could love. :) It was really fantastic, and I was so happy to be able to share it with my mom and Joe and Vida. I got some flowers and an "It's a Boy!" balloon afterwards and the blonde in me said "How did you know it would be a boy?". I had a real duh moment when Vida opened the back of her car and said "I didn't!" and the pink balloon popped out. I'm just going with the adreneline messed with my brain. yeah...